Herispeak

I dream of writing a book. A wonderful literal masterpiece like no other.   I truly dream. I imagine myself at the book launch…signing off hundreds and hundreds of copies whilst swathed by fans from all corners of the world. I see myself at a book reading or at a cocktail hobnobbing with Chimamanda Adichie or Binyavanga Wainaina…or this literal genius from Ethiopia whose name I forget but who wears a beautiful afro and looks as mysterious as can be.  But what I must tell you is this….it is a tough dream to accomplish. Writing a book requires one to pour themselves into the book..completely. It is is difficult for an author to disassociate from their work…because writing comes from the depths of depths. Writing exposes the depth of the author’s knowledge or the shallowness of the same. It exposes their ignorance, if at all and applauds their intelligence…their astonishing imagination..their humour...their...their...their everything!  I dream ..I dream of being ...

I wrote the below piece whilst I was heavily pregnant and dying with curiosity about the little being I carried within. That was back in 2008. I came across it today (27/03/02013) etched on a rough piece of paper and stacked in between piles of paper cleared from old house. Blind Date I wonder what you look like What colour your eyes are The shape of your mouth Your smile...mine or his I can't wait to see your beautiful dimples your lovely thick hair I can't wait to hold you close to me And rub your face against mine It will be a moment I will cherish foreever I can't wait to hear the sound of your voice And the sound of your laughter I can't wait to see your eyes twinkle with glee or mischief One day you will crawl Then you will walk And then you will run But I know you will always be close to my heart You are the love of my life. ------ Dedicated to Levi Kamau Kipkorir Choge

I sat...waiting for you to arrive...wondering what you brought in your wake. A part of me was a little afraid...but on the whole, I was extremely excited! I had heard good things about you. That you came with reprieve,  restoration, renewal, rebuilding and all good things that came with the pre-phrase "RE". Yes, I need some REPRIEVE . Reprieve from my past mistakes and messes, for the wrongs I have done to others and the big man upstairs...reprieve from myself...by myself.  I could do with some RESTORATION too! Restoration of all I have lost in the past years....physical loss, spiritual loss, emotional loss, financial loss. Yes...I definitely could do a LOT of restoration.  RENEWAL ..now there's a word I like. Renewed mind, body, spirit and soul. My body and spirit especially. My body more so! I could see it in my mind...the new me. The new me..FOR REAL. It must happen this time.  Ahhhhhh REBUILDING . Past relationships that were destroyed...

From a deathless death...and a sleepless sleep I woke Without realising death had been so close Threatening to swallow me, to consume me, that I would be no more I woke To the light of my destiny And to God's purpose I woke To a beautiful life Never ending joy, energy abounding, desire to be I woke I woke Because the Almighty wouldn't give up on me Nor give me up to a deathless death and a sleepless sleep I woke Because he lives I woke

The letter My love,   It has not been easy to love you. This is so because it is not easy to love a person like you. I apologise if I hurt you by those words or any other I utter herewith. What you must remember is that I love you.  You make it quite difficult. We agree to do things. Important things. Things that will change our lives for the better. Things that are good for us. But what do you do? You go ahead and sabotage our plans. You do the completely opposite. You puzzle me but still I love you.  I know life has not been easy on you. But it rarely is easy on anyone. So fragile a being you have been. Easily hurt, easily swayed, easily loving, easily hating but...BUT easily bouncing back....easily accomplishing! You remind me of that advert...you know it.... the "Never say die" one. It's their motto and I think it has inadvertently been yours too.  I write to remind you of this. That regardless of what you have been through, regardless of y...

"Toa Nguo" says Nixon. To his amazement, Millie's initial look of fear seems to disappear. In it's place is a calm, far away look that he cannot understand. She gets up from the floor and proceeds to undress. Slowly, calmly...methodically. She folds each item and puts it neatly away on the old, shaky stool next to the bed. She then sits on the bed and looks up to him for direction. Again....that far away look is present in her eyes. Expecting to deal with a screaming, scared girl, Nixon is perplexed. "This is too easy" he thinks though not relenting from his initial resolve. For the next 3 hours, he proceeds to rape Millie repeatedly. In between "the sessions" , he takes time out to tell her his life story. How ironical. As if it would interest Millie at all. At one point, he even breaks down and cries. Then he "requests" Millie to wipe his tears. She does but never looks him in the eye. Millie on the other hand lies listlessly.....

Inspiration comes from the least expected avenues. I watched the video above this afternoon which I picked up from someones post. As I watched, so many things struck me at once.....it was one of life's moments that occur to us every now and then. Sometimes, we are too involved in the moment, that we never even recognize anything has occurred. Other times, we are so engrossed, that we fail to see the lessons and they pass us by, without any impact, without any lessons. Instead, we focus on the activity happening and we think the activity was everything. We see nothing else. Once in a while though, we pay attention....and we see the moment for what it truly is....a life changing lesson....and we note it...we listen...we watch...and we allow that moment to change us and gain true meaning. That certainly happened to me today. As I watched it...this is what came to mind................. LESSONS FROM THE AFRICAN WILD FROM THE BUFFALO 1. It's all well and good ...