The Vanished Ones



Child of guilt...you surprised me so Taken aback, I chose cowardice instead of bravery I cowed under the shame and weight of responsibility I begged you to let me be...to allow me to return home And you let me Yet I cried for you...I mourned and wept as I had loved you despite You were a gentleman....I real man of valor and honour I curtsy deep for you made me proud Though guilt eats away at my soul, I remember you with pride


Child of joy....my soul recognized you before my heart did You came as if you belonged, though left so soon Without a care nor thought you escaped me I thought I wouldn't care but my tears spoke for me Like a fleeting murmur that was, yet so still In a moment of quiet...you whispered your name And I smile for I knew you to be true


Child of light....you stole your way into my life Like a thing that had to be, there was no denying you A new beginning you birthed, amidst the doubts and fears I fought for you....I pushed for you...I broke for you And with you came the greatest pain of all My heart is shattered...my soul drenched in your blood Why did you die yet hold on to me so long? Why did you leave such a deep brokenness in me? How can I go on without your light? How can I live again? What wretchedness! What anguish! I wail and wail for you my love Oh child of light....leave your brightness in your wake....let my paths shine like never before. Let my ways be clear and precise. Lead me back to the Father that he may make me whole again.


- Herispeak

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